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there are fixations where you're like oh my brain has latched onto something per my usual adhd patterns and then there are fixations where you touch a piece of media for the first time and immediately you're like ah... so this is what it is like, to meet your soulmate. and your soulmate. is a shounen manga from 2004
#i watch the first episode of death note and suddenly see the world in colour like in one of those fanfictions#now that ive collected a few of these i really am seeing such a pattern of my Media Type#it boggles the mind still that this series is something that feels like it was made in a lab specifically for me and i somehow didnt pick it#up until my twenties. i mean i maintain thats a good thing but still it's odd#like this feels like it should have been formative media for me but thank god it wasn't#rookposting#it is nice to be so into something that i feel like i can create for again#and thank you all for tolerating me slamming through your walls shouting about a twenty year old series
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The situation between Kiryu and Majima is mostly just really depressing. But I think you kinda got at a silver lining with Majima ending the game by talking to and spending time with Kiryu in a normal way.
Majima has done everything except be upfront with Kiryu about his feelings. Instead, he does a lot of self-destructive things for Kiryu’s sake that would only devastate Kiryu if he knew the extent of what’s been going on with him (thinking of Kiryu being a mess in 5 over Majima’s “death” and then Majima nearly actually dying for Kiryu’s sake).
Majima just spending time with Kiryu in the hospital and telling him about what he’s been up to probably goes a lot further in making Kiryu happy than if he had actually shown up with a immortal elixir that he put his life at risk to get.
Yeah, looking back I wish I'd taken more time to reflect on the new, more positive development between Majima and Kiryu at the end of the scene, because as depressing as their situation as a whole is, that silver lining is genuinely really significant. I believe it really does show that their relationship is not doomed to depressing hell forever, and that is largely in part to Majima's own growth in this game.
As I touched on in another post, Majima walking away from the viewer to Kiryu’s hospital room parallels very interestingly with how Yakuza 0 ended, when Majima walked away from Makoto. In y0 silences his feelings and walks away, choosing to maintain a physical And emotional distance between them that he carries all the way to yk2 (and that he Does Not Let Go Of, even In his saga in yk2), leaving all of the self-sacrificing and self-destructive gestures but none of the actual fulfillment of the ability to just. Enjoy each others' company when the danger has finally passed.
Meanwhile in pyih you see him walking towards Kiryu in the final seconds of the game, confronting him head-on (with encouragement from Saejima), just to. Talk. No business, no "take care of x for me" no "I'm Depending on your for y", just having a normal conversation like they should've, could've done in yakuza 3, like they could've done in infinite wealth, what I wish they'd done in 5 and what they Definitely didn't do enough of in Gaiden. (And, just like what Majima and Makoto should've done too in yk2, if Majima had actually grown).
Its interesting because Majima, who's all about impulsive and grandiose gestures and actions and the need to die in a way that matters for someone else, technically didn't even "win" with his plans this time, like he did with Makoto. He didn't get to pull off his hundred-millionth self-sacrificing gesture for Kiryu. He didn't get to die valiantly fighting. A giant squid (lmao) or run back to Japan with the treasure that he dug up with his own blood sweat and tears. But he seems. Strangely okay with the aftermath, all things considered (I know I've been sticking to the word "resigned" when describing how he feels in this particular moment all this time but. What I'm getting at is that he's more okay than you may expect, considering the circumstances and the stakes at hand.)
(I want to (very abruptly lol) point out the fact that we've seen this kind of arc with Majima on a smaller scale before. Majima had a lot of the same deal in y0/4, where he pushed himself with the goal to die for Saejima for Years before his release from prison and was ready to go through with it the day of. However, this ended up being another situation where he "didn't win." What he got by the end of it wasn't Saejima claiming his title as new Tojo patriarch over his dead body, but rather (after a fight goaded on by Majima himself and some pushing by Saejima) they got to just. Talk things down. And just go back to being the bros they were before that whole mess. And Saejima's been able to be Majima's rock for the rest of the games since.
I just think someone would've benefited a Lot from taking notes. And that someone is Not Saejima.)
Like I kinda-did-kinda-didn't get to at the end of the whale post, I think the most important takeaway for Majima at the end of this game is him learning to not constantly throw himself into the fire for every person he wants to protect. Getting himself killed for Saejima and Kiryu wouldn't have made them happy. Keeping himself away from Makoto didn't make her happy, and now the ship of them being involved in each other's lives has long since sailed.
Keeping himself emotionally distant hasn't helped any of them Once, and this is why it's so important that he tries to cross some of that gap now with what is honestly his worst case of lifelong devotion yet (even if it's in a way that's small, in a way that's arguably insignificant for the emotional rift they have, even if it's just through telling some pirate tale, even if Kiryu might not know the true significance of it all even now. At least its Something. At least they just get to be. People, together. It's much more casual than anything they've had with each other for the past like 5 games, but strangely that casualness is arguably more intimate, after everything that's happened.)
Honestly this decision from Majima aligns perfectly with the admittedly cheesy (but I mean this in a loving way) ending of the main plot of pyih itself; by the end of the adventure Majima seeks not the grand impossible treasure he was originally chasing after but to rather cherish and enjoy the time he spent with the people he has come to care about over the course of the game (the photo). Such simple kinds of wishes are rare for Majima at best, but that's why it's so important he gives himself that now: the ability to just sit down and talk with the people he cherishes. That literally would've saved him so many damn times, I think. I think that's something he's desperately needed with Kiryu especially since Yakuza 3. And I think that those final moments in the last cutscene of pirate yakuza means he'll let himself indulge in it, just a little.
I really just hope that it'll be enough to give him and Kiryu some of that peace and closure that they seem to chronically lack, especially when it comes to each other. I hope it means they really can be happy with each other, just for a little while. Most of all I hope it means Majima can be at least some degree of upfront one day, before it's straight up too late 💥
(tl;dr Yeah, honestly, Majima just sitting down and talking with Kiryu for once means more for himself than killing himself over that eternal life elixir ever could have. He's an old ass man, he should learn to settle down a bit, you know?)
#yakuza#rgg#pirate yakuza spoilers#like a dragon pirate yakuza in hawaii#pirate yakuza in hawaii#majima goro#asks#majima does so much work to protect/support those he loves but will never let himself bask in their company when they're finally safe#and if he ever sees himself as the obstacle/the source at fault then he tries to keep himself as far away from them as he can. Crazy#God idk if that made any sense i am way too tired to be writing all this but also I wanted to respond asap LOL. it is.Erm. 2 in the morning#I feel like I veered a bit off topic from the original scope of the ask somehow uhhh Oops 💀💀💀#WELL hope you enjoyed anyway. Thank you for sending an ask :)#(I. Oh my god no way the ost for the final cutscene just started playing take me out back I can't DO this anymore /lh)#I should really run a word counter on how much I've written over this game in just a week one day... it would be funny I think hehe#certified yap sessions
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I wont complain about the dad chan comments anymore as long as I stop seeing people be like Minho and Jisung are innies parents 🥰 Han is 5 months older than that guy and recounted a whole story about kissing Jeongin that one time. Stop.
#????#bro the way people talk about lee know as if hes somehow like. the one who made jeongin pisses me off#Oh jeongins sexy now bc he got it from lee know oh jeongin got his sassy personality from lee know or hes mini lee know#that time i saw people saying jeongins face was literally changing to look more like lee know bc they took the idea of#~looking like the ones you love~ to be literal and i was like oh my god thats not what that means#AND JEONGIN WAS ALWAYA HANDSOME U NEVER PAID ATTENTION TO HIM UNTIL AUGUST LAST YR SHUT UP#now hans his fucking mother????? lmao NO#none of these guys are parents and if we went off the cuties dorm dynamic actually seungmin was the one making family dinners and turning#lights off when people fell asleep happen but i dont think anyones gonna pretend hes the mother now right lmao#all im sayin is if a guy has told a whole story about askin another guy to kiss him and that guy did dont then call that guy the other guys#mother and also give jeongin credit for his own personality and ability to dance and be funny or sexy Okay? thank u
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no ones ever gonna understand how much i love daigo doin this stupid shit after dissolving the tojo
#snap chats#is this a gaiden spoiler. its been like five months catch up you nerds#ANYWAYYYYY NOO I LOVE HIM ....... this whole bit is like four seconds long but i love it so much#i just reminded myself i should probably make gaiden/y8 videos for daigo.. i'll make it a JP/ENG comp or somethn.. one day#not soon tho like its barely anything since he's not in those games Long At All but still. im lazy 💀#excuse me while i gush about daigo for twenty minutes now because hehee HE'S SO CUTE I CAN'T GET OVER IT#this is literally the middle aged equivalent of going yippee like YOU CAN TELL HE'S SO RELIEVED IT'S SO CUTE#got the energy of a student with crippling anxiety after they somehow get through giving a presentation without throwing up#AND his lil smile ......... thank you gaiden you made me wanna eat drywall with daigo's sad puppy dog eyes about kiryu#and then immediately made up for it a minute later#sorry i keep scrolling up to look at him and i love him so much. what if i threw up#i dont like using babygirl lightly but this is actually the most Babygirl frame of him ever ive decided#thats my boy .... i love my boy so much ..... he's so cute ... come so far in life congratulations king ..... ily ...#him lookin up at the sky for a minute just to breathe i know he thankin god for the fact he somehow isnt dead yet#im gonna ignore the fact all of this was for naught so i dont bash my head against a wall anyway stan daigo#im gonna be sick i love him so much#if i redraw this later shut up. i love him...#this is why i try not to look at cutscenes anymore cause when i do i feel my brain being put in a microwave and start to melt#its not my fault i love my guys so much .... ok bye i have work to do ....#and then when i finish that work i can go back to loving my guys YAAAAAY !!!!!!!
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So... a while ago i made this redraw of an edit with itafushi wedding, however i was only happy with how I drew Itafushi, so i said that i would upload a version without the rest of the characters and then...never did it. the reason is because tbh i wished i had painted it better. So i decided to do it again, but then i had problems with adding stripes(? to Yuuji's hair the way i initially had done with Megumi, so i decided to add more detail by making him have individual spikes...and then i realized that they looked way more detailed than i had initially planned, but it was also the best hair I've painted in my life.
So in the end i had to redo Megumi's hair so it matched and THEN try to match the style for everything else. It could look better tbh but I'm too proud of the hair to be bothered by it.
Oh and i also added Megumi's new scars, cause why not.
#tbh im not sure if i would be able to replicate whatever the fuck i did there/hj#god megumi's hair was somehow harder than yuuji's. i actually had to erase and remake some of the front spikes so i could keep the “flow”#of the upward spikes#thank god it's over#itafushi#megumi fushiguro#jjk megumi#yuji itadori#itadori yuuji#jjk yuji#megumi x yuuji#jjk 268#jjk manga spoilers#jjk manga#jjk fanart#digital art#fanart#mine#made with tablet
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#cannot stress enough how truly insane this week has been#1) got a (really good) full time job mostly by accident- this is life altering in a few ways#2) packing to move out away from my parent(s) for the first time ever#3) 3.5 hour conversation with my best friend about [redacted literally life changing realization]#4) a mouse somehow got into my fridge and so I will:#4a) definitely not be taking that fridge with me (the final nail in that coffin bc other factors made it unreasonable) and#4b) be spending tomorrow morning throwing away my groceries (honestly kind of a blessing in a really awful disguise because thank God I had#been avoiding grocery shopping for a few days anyway. also now I don't have to worry about eating all the food left in there before moving)#anyway. lots of upheaval lots of emotions lots of weird conversations?#and I'm moving on saturday. crazy. I have so much to do this week! yay!#and it looks like I will be. eating takeout and from cans mostly. which is fine I won't have time to cook anyhow.#shoutout to my friends who are coming to help me move bc they have truly been so great and I've been TERRIBLE at communicating about it <3#diary
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Oh FUCK NO we are NOT doing this I don’t give a fuck if Behemoth Asmodeus Beelzebub Satanator Shipman 3000 told you to play fucking wilderness tag Mari Alexandra Ibarra you are putting that jacket back on RIGHT NOW.
#yellowjackets#yellowjackets spoilers#thank fucking god i’m on leave today#mari ibarra#the writers hate funny and charismatic people in this show#congrats yj writers#you finally made me feel some rage towards shauna#I knew it was somehow coming#but damn#that was my baby girlll
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ADHD is a wild beast
one week youre drawing transformers fanart for 4 days straight, and a few weeks later youre feverishly trying to nifbash an outfit together and going completely off the fucking rails the guide set out for you
#textposting#something gives me the impression that when tammer made his nifbashing guide#he didnt do so with the expectation that some unhinged 2d animator would#ya know#immediately go off the rails and start brute forcing a long skirt into becoming the bottom end of a sweater#and then having to reckon with needing to both texture and somehow generate normals for it#normals especially#“oh but why not model it from scratch” weight painting scary next question#for the record i am inflicting this on myself of my own volition#on the bright side i feel like my drawing experience is just about the only thing stopping this mesh from devolving into a complete shitsho#i may not have any idea what im doing but by god if i dont have a mental library of shapes in spaces built up over the years#an admittedly faulty library but a library nonetheless#uhh in the unlikely event that tammer sees this since he IS on this webbed site#deepest thanks for the guides and my apologies for what i am proceeding to do with them#i am somehow incapable of following direction on anything but baking but rest assured that torturing myself like this is how i learn
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P'Aof revealed on twitter that JimmySea improvised the scene where Mork tales Day's watch off and you want to tell me that they really went into the d/s territory themselves????? Oh i am so gone
SLACK JAWED SHAKING OUT OF MY SKIN CRYING SHITTING YELLING AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS FOAMING AT THE MOUTH THROWING UP BLOOD WHILE IN A DEAD FAINT IN FRONT OF MY SCREEN NEEDING SMELLING SALTS TO RESTORE CONSCIOUSNESS I NEED EVERYBODY TO PAUSE
HOW DID I MISS P'AOF SAYING THIS HELLOOOOOO????????????? JIMMYSEA TRULY KINGS OF UNDERSTANDING THE ASSIGNMENT OF COMPREHENDING THE NUANCES OF GRASPING THE INTRICACIES OF DELIVERING THE IMPLICATIONS OF MASTERING THE RITUALS AND OF IMPROVISING THE MOST DERANGED SCENES EVER PUT TO FILM IN THE HISTORY OF TELEVISION I LOVE UNHINGED METHOD ACTORS WHO ARE ALL ABOUT THE PROCESS
also im not the most knowledgeable person about d/s dynamics, but if i came out of this episode with one single certainty is that mork is a service top. i think in general it's pretty obvious that mork's love language is acts of service (and his attempt to fix phorjai's laptop when he was hitting on her is a pretty glaring example of this), but i love that this episode points out that there's a big difference between HAVING to service someone and WANTING to service them. it's one of the many reasons day calling himself mork's 'friend' and mork's reaction to it is so important: day is putting them on a more equal ground, which of course makes him more accessible (because boss and employee is very much not the kind of relationship they want to have with each other), but it also tells us that when mork says 'let me help' and 'you need anything else?' it's not out of obligation due to his job. he WANTS to do that, he WANTS to take care of day and do what pleases him, because that's his way of loving and flirting with someone (and on the other hand, day has never wanted to be taken care of because since the accident people believed him incapable of doing it himself, but when it comes to mork, day now welcomes and even desires his care in a very different way)
AND ONCE AGAIN THE FACT THAT THIS ENTIRE SCENE WAS IMPROVISED BY JIMMYSEA AND YET FITS THE EPISODE AND THE CHARACTERS SO WELL???????? OUTSELLED OUTSERVED OUTSLAYED OUTACTED OUTPERFORMED OUTEVERYTHINGED
#IDEK WHY IM STILL SURPRISED ABOUT JIMMYSEA IMPROVISING THE MOST INSANE GOD TIER CONTENT TBH THAT'S JUST WHAT THEY DO#ANYWAY THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR LETTING ME KNOW ABOUT THIS ANON BECAUSE SOMEHOW I HAD COMPLETELY MISSED IT#also not sure if i made sense about mork being a service top but hopefully ;;;;;;#also hoping you're having a wonderful day!!!!!! 💜#last twilight the series#morkday#jimmysea#m: ask
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Dungeondaily posts are so crazy bc like. Jesus Christ. Those bitches really went through All That in like a month and a half.
#dungeon meshi#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#the character development is insane if you think about it#the world really said 'grow and be better or die' with a deadline of like a few weeks#and somehow. somehow they made it thank god#its so funny also. everyone is like#hyper traumatized#and for falin it was just a really weird month and a half that she doesnt remember much of anyway
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i know i just got here, but seeing all of the laughably bad takes from both sides of the spectrum is convincing me that no, i don’t actually need to be on social media again.
#this is about mdzs fandom discourse#this is a jc/jiggy support blog#but#they did bad things and made bad choices and i love that about them#i can acknowledge their bad choices and their flaws and still like them#but hooooooly fuck#the jc/jiggy/XICHEN antis drive me fucking banana nut bonkers#there are valid reasons to dislike all 3 of those characters and somehow you have created ones that are so far from reality i cannot believe#that we read the same book#or watched the same shows#1. get some reading comprehension i beg you#2. for the love of fucking god please like. find some god damn joy in your lives and stop giving a fuck about characters you don’t like#2.5 and people who like characters you don’t like#2.75 and i know that’s kind of blasse of me to say in the tags of a post griping abt people griping abt characters they don’t like#3. just??? go find joy? touch grass?? not everything is about you and your terrible reading comprehension#4. stop assuming that your way is the right way#5. the puritanical bullshit of protagonist inherently good is really getting old#i am begging you to do any modicum of research into the concept of antiheroes#it will broaden your horizons i prommy#not everything is about blorbos being all good all the time#your blorbo is not free of sin#(unless it’s sizhui. sizhui is always free of sin)#anyway i think imma delete tumblr. the algorithm keeps showing me anti posts and im old and tired#no discourse here pls and thanks#moots dm for discord if u wanna
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"yaoi ship wars" this and "don't get into dunmesh for the yaoi do it for the doomed yuri" that when we're all forgetting the true enemy here ... lai/cille ...
#dunmesh spoilers#woke up in a cold sweat after dreaming ryoko kui had retroactively made lai/cille canon#thank god straight people don't exist in dunmesh#ekjfsjdf i actually dont have that much of a problem with lai/cille i think it's sweet#however i just know people are going to get the wrong idea from the succubus chapter#succubus!marcille really said “if i were ACTUALLY a succubus you would have been charmed when i tried to kiss you right??”#and laios is like “oh yeah you're right that makes no sense” like it WORKS LMAO#like we're all wearing shipping goggles here and if things somehow went down the exact same way with kabru i would never shut up about it#but thankfully ill never need to embarrass myself in quite that way because ryoko kui didn't personally slap my dolls out of my hands lolol#sadie and lars being hit by a canon and sinking on their ship ass energy lmaoo
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Hihi this is so random but I saw your tag on the green blue hetrochromia thing for Richtofen and I wanted to say that's actually a really old fandom trope! Back on DeviantArt I recall a lot of artists drawing Ed w/ green eyes but I believe at some point it was made cannon that his eyes were blue so people began doing hetrochromia...Though honestly I could be misremembering, all I know is that ppl have been drawing him with one blue and one green eye since at least 2011! :-3
WHAAAT OH MY GOD THATS SO COOL I was wondering bc I started seeing it around more often lately, but I had no idea where it came from :0 the closest thing that I cld even think of was that in Origins (I think it was Origins anyways??? i cld be completely misremembering) they accidentally made Richtofen's eyes green for a bit (or maybe it was on purpose who knows what was happening with Origins, Samantha was American for like five minutes bc of how little they knew what they were doing dfhgjdfgjks) and then immediately went back to blue :sob: It grabbed my attention bc a very similar thing happened with the Ace Attorney fandom regarding Phoenix Wright's eyes :> in official art his eyes seem to swap between blue and brown a lot, so most artists (myself included teehee) adopted heterochromia as a headcanon for him!! I'm a VERY long time cod zombies fan going on like?? 13 years now I think if my xbox's achievement tracker is to be trusted???? but im only recently starting to interact with the wider fandom for it and i am VERY quickly learning that ive got a lot of catching up to do :(( once my laptop is fixed though i am drawing SO MUCH OF THESE FREAKS AUGHH
#it made me so happy opening my inbox to this btw#sorry to get kind of ranty in the tags but i went a very long period of my life not realizing there WAS a fandom for cod zombies and it-#-felt very isolating for a while :< turns out i was simply not looking in the right corners of the internet it seems bc while the community#-is not particularly large there IS a dedicated fanbase that i jsut somehow managed to miss for the last (checks notes) at least a decade#i hope to make cod zombies friends someday........ i very recently got my brother and his partner to play after begging for years and i am-#-SO SO SO SO SO happy that they like it :> their enjoyment of one of my longest running interests has brought me so much joy and made an-#-otherwise rough start to the year be very very very joyful for me :3#oh ym god sorry wow i got very off topic in these tags. uhhhmmm#thank u for reaching out it means so much to me :3 i love cod zombies so much and being able to talk abt it with other people so much-#-lately has felt like making up for lost time :> very joyous and whimsical#ask#cod zombies
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Tagged by @space-diablo
I shall tag @optimisticlucio and @cute-sweet-corgo
THIS OR THAT
coffee or tea | early bird or night owl | chocolate or vanilla | spring or fall | silver or gold | pop or alternative (metal) | freckles or dimples (I have no opinion on this) | snakes or sharks | mountains or fields | thunder or lightning | egyptian mythology or greek mythology | ivory or scarlet | flute or lyre | opal or diamond | butterflies or honeybees | macarons or eclairs (pastel de nata) | typewritten or handwritten | secret garden or secret library | rooftop or balcony | spicy or mild | opera or ballet | london or paris | vincent van gogh or claude monet | denim or leather | potions or spells | ocean or desert | mermaids or sirens | masquerade ball or cocktail party TOP 5 SONGS ON REPEAT
they change all of the time but currently... Oops! all Star One
I'm not even ashamed, this album is a masterpiece, definitely recommend Prescient to anyone here who also likes metal
#aethris text#thank you for the tag!#I usually listen to so many different things but this month its been really just#goodness gracious Revel In Time is just SUCH A GOOD ALBUM#Ive loved Star One since I first listened to Space Metal but my god they somehow keep getting better and better#I also actually watched Primer after first listening to Prescient and not only is that song a banger of astronomical proportions#it has also introduced me to a movie I really enjoyed#this was the best blind album purchase Ive ever made#anyway enough of me fangirling over this band#check out the album if you like metal though
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I’d like to take a moment of silence for the archive dot org death of season 25 episode 13 of SNL starring Ben Affleck as the host and Fiona Apple as the musical guest
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I talk a lot about random gods but really random fate makes me want to fucking explode in a completely different way
#the song somehow hits far too close to home without even having lyrics what the fuck#it's made so fucking well but if im not careful i just make myself sad (doesnt happen with random gods)#it sounds so good and for what#anyway progfrox is a god among men. as are all those involved with making the game. thanks for coming to my ted talk#rain world#rainworld#not sure i should maintag this but i wanna see if people agree#personal#vent#??
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